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Artemis by FabiosisAlert Artemis :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 0 0 Heyo by FabiosisAlert Heyo :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 1 0 the five seasons by FabiosisAlert the five seasons :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 1 0 Re: Orlando by FabiosisAlert Re: Orlando :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 4 0 they party by FabiosisAlert they party :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 0 0
I never see myself from the outside,
At least, not lucidly.
I appear in many different forms--
Plaid skirt,
White blouse,
My thick hair, light, undyed, naive, loose but finding its way into the skull-yanking, scrunchy-tightness of my mother's hands,
is in pigtails.
I'm a kindergartner in a private school where I have no friends and as hard as my little voice tries, it can't stitch blank faces into smiles but easily knits years of frowns and rolled eyes.
Bags of all kinds,
Messenger, backpack, lunch box, grocery, eyes,
All piled on my body,
Oversized hoodies, sweaters, wrappings of blankets, heavy boots, pants thicker than the skin of those that made me feel small.
If you peel back every layer,
You'll find an unraveling little creature struggling to take shelter.
Its ugly, blue in every sense, and trying so hard to go about unnoticed that it buried itself in silence.
No grin. No fear.
Teeth sharpened, tongue lashing,
There is a coldness in my throat and a compulsion in my gut that
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Dry Mental Bones
There is warmth enveloping me,
But you fail to notice this humidity has its hands around my throat.
Demanding I, "Just breathe," lets loose choked coughs I can't help, but aren't, "good enough."
"Look at the sun! Everything else is growing, why aren't you?"
There are two sides to every daylight.
You found yourself on the path of the nurtured and flourished,
Reaching towards brightness without a second thought and much less, a second glance.
I've stumbled into the unwavering heat with its breath beating against my back and glittering sweat flecking my skin like glass shards.
I am in desperate pursuit of shade, cover, rest-
But you're rolling your eyes in a greener pasture.
"It's not that hard, stop being so lazy, stop giving up, stop with the excuses, stop making this harder for yourself, stop lying around, stop blaming your problems on this, stop acting like you can't at least try, stop-"
Believe me, I would if I could.
No one chooses the desert over meadows.
At least, not anyone w
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I'm A Stitch Away by FabiosisAlert I'm A Stitch Away :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 2 0 Snack Time by FabiosisAlert Snack Time :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 5 1 2015 Year In Review by FabiosisAlert 2015 Year In Review :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 1 0 Merry Christmas From Pipabeth by FabiosisAlert Merry Christmas From Pipabeth :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 7 0 Lights On by FabiosisAlert Lights On :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 17 1 Lights Off by FabiosisAlert Lights Off :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 19 2 Tweet Tweet by FabiosisAlert Tweet Tweet :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 2 0
I've never known what
I was doing but
I am sure now that
I have a chest buried under concrete
I can't wiggle out from under unless
I leave a limb behind and all
I can think to sacrifice is my pen holding hand.
I don't mean my right or my left
I mean the arm reaching from my heart
I can see cut in an overlapping crochet of writer's block.
I can feel it allowing its blood to flow
I've watched dark black ink ooze,
I watch it now, paling and evacuating
I'd stop it if
I could, but the art is fleeing and pooling under my skin and
I know it'll sink into the earth until reformed
I can see it finding the next in need of a donor
I know it won't come back to me because
I have started every line here with "I" to prove how selfish
I have become in what
I've sacrificed and what
I haven't.
I left it alone for so long that
I feel the cramping in my pinch of muscles and
I can see the withering strength
I left my poetic devices with.
I've leaped to higher balconies and bigger offices,
I have watched bus
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Big Buff Hazel Puff by FabiosisAlert Big Buff Hazel Puff :iconfabiosisalert:FabiosisAlert 11 0




Artist | Student | Varied
United States
Hi, I’m Phoebe!

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Note me instead of comments please!! ovo



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pinkythepink Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2015  Professional Artisan Crafter
:love: Thank you for the favorites, it really means ever so much to me that you enjoy my artwork! I invite you to add me to your watch so that you can see all the future beaded and stitched pieces I have planned! :blowkiss: Just think of the sparkles... :squee:
MissyJan Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2014
Welcome! Thank you so much for joining :iconallartworld:
Hope you have an awesome time with us!
If you have any questions, queries or issues feel free to talk to any of the admins at AAW, we are happy to assist you.
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Sergiba Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2014
Thanks for the watch and the fav! very kind. :hug:
FabiosisAlert Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2014  Student General Artist
sure! i really like your pictures!
skurshecia Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Student Filmographer
Thank ya for the fav on: Percabeth by skurshecia
FabiosisAlert Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Student General Artist
no problem!! it's a really cute Percabeth!! :heart:
kuro-i-tami Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the fave !! c: <3 <3
FabiosisAlert Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2014  Student General Artist
no problem!! :heart:
SassyCam16 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Student Artist
Thankx B-) (Cool) 
waywardgal Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much for taking the time out to favorite my works. It means such a great deal to me that you enjoy my art, and I hope you can consider watching Hug
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